Wednesday, December 15, 2010

A Balancing Act

Whenever we go on a walk, Arrow enjoys finding a curb or wall to walk on.  For some reason he likes the balance beam feel.  I don't blame him.  Balance beam was one of my favorite events during my many childhood years of gymnastics.  

My life feels like a balancing act right now.  I am working on getting into Grad School, trying to bring some money in, and basically trying to figure out who I am.  I am balancing free time with study time, rest time with work time.  Basically I am trying to plan my life.  I know that sounds strange, but when you apply to a 4 year graduate program, you are applying to a big part of your future.  I am applying to an unknown city where I will be living, an unknown group of people, unknown hurdles, unknown joys, unknown everything.  And it is hard.  Being 26 is hard.  I don't mean to say that other times in life aren't equally difficult, but I am kind of done with my twenties.  So over them.  I think older people forget what their twenties were like.  What it was like to be moving from one family to your own life.  What it is like to plan your career and figure out the details.  What it is like to have only a pocket full of experience in the cargo pants of life. I'm trying not to wish my life away, because that is not at all what I want.  I just want to know that it is all possible.  That I can do what I see other people doing.  That I am not alone.  

Sorry if this post was kind of a downer.  I just needed to get it out there to you, The Internet, my support.
I am working on a short post about my weekend in San Francisco, and will have it up soon.  In the meantime, enjoy the pictures of Arrow, climbing a very steep and curvy hill, with me following right behind him.

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