Four Years Ago Wednesday

I lost my Nanny.

My Mother's Mother was a force to be reckoned with.  She was the Mother of four, one of whom passed before her.

She was the Grandmother of eight.

She was the Great-Grandmother of two.

She touched more lives than we will ever know.

She knew tragedy and pain.

She knew love and laughter.

She accidentally put green eyeliner on her eyebrows and when someone pointed it out she laughed harder than anyone.

When I was born she wrote this:

First Granddaughter

Over 900 miles away from me

there is a child in Texas

a brand-new child

And here in my solar plexus 

there is this new joy

that is like an old pain

I recognize.

The vulnerability 

of loving so much,

of caring so much,

of worrying about another person now 

for the rest of my life.

My daughter

has a daughter

and we are inextricably bound forever,

my new granddaughter and I.

H.L.P.

We could all learn from her that loving so much, caring so much, worrying so much...it's all so worth it.

I wouldn't be here without you Nanny, even if you used to pat my tush in the store and embarrass me.

xoxo

Meggie